Directions Unclear

January 20, 2017

There’s no such thing as certainty
In this life of dreams.
I am shadow of shadow
Infinite reflection reflected.
An abstract of an abstract.
Concept indeterminate.
Syntax error.


January 19, 2017

We share this home –
this vessel of blood and bones.
Mingle with me
and divide my cells.
Mitosis. Meiosis, Metastasis.
Inch across my abdomen.
Terrify my family,
and eat me from inside.
Wrinkle my skin and hollow my cheeks.
You breathe when I breathe.
Eat when I eat.
Divide. Divide, repeat.


We Spend Our Time, Leaving it Behind

January 15, 2017

“I must think of it constantly in order to take care not to think of it. In this connection it must be understood not only that I must of necessity perpetually carry within me what I wish to flee but also that I must aim at the object of my flight in order to flee it… Thus anguish, properly speaking, can be neither hidden nor avoided.”

From Being and Nothingness by Jean Paul Sartre translated by Hazel E. Barnes

We are a potential energy
dancing between poles,
We are a dammed river

We are that little god inside me
forced to possess my freedom,
We are a simple question

We are a always facing one other
and are never speaking,
We are pressing need

We are love and we are also not
so I keep on dreaming,
We are always sleeping —

Life Is Terrifying but We Don’t Know Any Better

January 13, 2017

I am circumspect –
it’s not the first time it’s happened
since I left your bed,
and it’s been a long ten years
since I left it.

I can handle this –
picking up my pieces every once in a while,
but this is getting
out of

We don’t have to be alone.
We don’t have to be together.
We don’t have to be alone.
Because we don’t have to be anything.

This is all it takes –
one smile one kiss and I just release
then watch myself dissolve,

I’ll get over it –
I repeat to myself religiously,
before I take another
and another.

We don’t have to get along.
We don’t have to play the part.
We don’t have move on.
Because we don’t have to do anything.

It takes everything we have —
Everything we have
To choose.