Ionized

November 26, 2016

from the stoic advances
of an ignorant boy
to the knowing glances
of a half-tamed lover


I Follow the Light

November 20, 2016

From hope
to expectation
I follow the light
until it dies.

I know I shouldn’t
rely —
but I follow that light
until it dies.

Left listless
in the darkness of an empty bedroom.
I’ve followed the light,
until it died.


An Unfortunate Verse

November 13, 2016

I’ve forgotten everything
I’ve ever said.
except for when,
I told myself
“You’ll never win.”


Only So

October 13, 2016

We remember
together
when we were
together,
But we
leave it
only so.


Be Alive First

March 13, 2016

We’re all going to die.
but the terrifying part
is that we’ve all gotta
be alive
first.


Six Bad Months Don’t Make a Year

January 23, 2015

six bad months don’t make a year.
remember that this time next year.
when everything is still dull and gray;
when
the sky is white velvet
and the ground is wet.
don’t remind yourself that those people told you
its easy,
“just be happy.”
and don’t remember that this is your fault for not choosing
correctly.
don’t remember that you are doing it wrong.
don’t remember that happy is normal
and normal is happy.
or that those couples are perfect,
that life is ideal
and there’s an objectively right way
to feel.
Do remember that
we all die the same way.
alone,
having never asked to live
but having done as best we could
with our accidental ‘gift.’
happiness isn’t always a lie
but it is always collusion
between amino acids
and nerves.
You have nothing to do with it.


A Warm Bath

December 1, 2014

every war is a civil war
every casualty is a crime,
together we stood
and lost one another
to the test of time.
we disolved
into a warm bath –

and forgot the rest.